The Change

Warning — this content may not be suitable for all audiences. Reading this post is not advisable for men with an aversion to women’s hormonal issues.

One would think that 44 years old is too young to be perimenopausal, but it seems it’s not. My menstrual cycle started changing at the beginning of 2018. Prior to that it was clockwork — 28 days at 9 a.m. Early 2018 they started coming every 24 to 26 days, and by the end of 2018 I was experiencing occasional 30 to 31 day cycles. My January cycle was 25 days, and now I’ve completely skipped February.

Seven negative pregnancy tests later, I’ve succumb to the fact I’m going through the change. Of course, one skipped period doesn’t mean it’s over. The doctor told me this could go on for years, or it could just stop. Symptoms may get worse, or I may not suffer many at all. Given that my PMS symptoms have always been pretty bad, I’m scare of what’s to come. For the past three weeks, I’ve been bloated and my breasts are extremely swollen. For some that would be great, but not for me.

A year ago in April, I had breast reduction surgery. I’ve hated the size of my breast for as long as I can remember, so the surgery was a blessing. I’ve enjoyed my non-invasive boobies for almost a year, but now it feels like they are back. To be fair, they are still no where as big as they use to be, but still… big enough. I’m now stuck wondering if I will get a period anytime soon, or if I will skip more periods. I’ve never wanted to bleed as badly as I do right now. I’d give anything for the PMS to go away.

My friend “Google” hasn’t been much help to me, as there doesn’t seem to be a manual on what to expect. There are some common symptoms and ages listed, but nothing concrete. It looks like I have to grin and bare it until it’s over. If only I’d been born with a set of balls between my legs. Life would be so much easier.